Saturday, July 28, 2001

setting into sets into suns into where there is no one
who cares.. the type withon and without, self annalitical inhibited romance only formed and never created beyond spines of books and their freedom. In minds dealt with razors set by standards built by the fears faced inside glass masks made by you. hi how are you.

Friday, July 27, 2001

Last night I went home with a straanger... haven't we all? I recieved the 20 parental questions, do i smoke dope? am i gay or straight?(52 wrong %'s according to thespark.com) do i do extacy ? it was great fun jolly good. I do miss the concerns parents relinquish from there children. joy joy.. And i realized that i missed suburbia, though i don't live in one or ever truly did. No , that's not true.. with Andrew... in Calgary. But i mean this shit was far.. damn far .Orleans... crazy ass far. So we get back to hers and i just want to watch Craig Kilborn cause, well, he's the shit. I meet her pothead brother, who dives into books with me, Che.. Kerouac..motorcycle diaries..etc and of the like.To her horror, this stranger (a not so bad one may i add, from the availible pool ;) was bonding with her brother... i, bond with everyone. She has a sister.. whom i meet briefly the next morning. When i'm told to stay away form the bait. We get tired go upstairs i thought to sleep... but no.. it was booty time. I dodn't feel like booty, SO THERE WAS NO BOOTY. (she bites though) Her mom met me at 2am so was obviously unimpressed with this stranger. Kicked us downstairs where i went into sleep deprived mood. talked all funny, laughed to myself and basically denied any action on my part. (scottish accent) I didn't mean to be so cruel, I. but i just wasn't gona get it on.. with a stranger.. i mean, i felt not like it that evening.
Woke up woozy.. content with my bad but restained self ;) I've been nibbled on, but only bruises. And so on our way back, i slowly, maticulously set my boundaries without mentioning them alot. She goes off to work and I'v emade a friend without harm, though she may be upset about the no-booty thing... but then again, I'd have to live with kicking myself about that. So, it's all good.
I usually have a hard time saying no and then regret it later on... so you have to understand how proud i am of myself ;)
As for Ashley (which by the way is her name) she' seems cool with it.. in an understanding way. I'm hip, I'm cool. Anyhow, that's my sweet story.. I still se her , she works across the street. We be friends and I be leaving soon.
May I add that her last boyfriend was 3 years ago and i am one of teh first guys she' s booty-called home since her 7 girlfriends. Make sme feel special ;) Ciao

Sunday, July 22, 2001

"There is no love left in your eyes, there is love between your thighs...I hate my life I hate my life, never want another wife"
-Dave Navarro
Today I recieved my TESOL (English as a second language) certificate. I'm an English teacher.. per say. I still have some written material to fill out.. but i'm good to go basically.
I can't belive I actually finished what i was set out to accomplish.. i mean usually the good which happens to me is a spontaneous state of mind that over hauls fear and perhaps this was.. but i know it wasn't. (Would like to thank the big guy above for all the help and courage, I love you ;)
I have my high school equivalency and my Teachers certificate.
SOUTH AMERICA HERE I COME